once upon a time...
i had a love affair with a guitar...
but we were seperated.
i tried to play others...
but none ever felt right.
today an old friend gave his guitar to me...
it was recieved as a symbol of our friendship, which has been a unique one...
but one time tested and true...
thank you michael...
i will love her.

let the love affair begin.....

today is turning out to be a pretty significant day.

it started out like any other day... playing with Griffin around the house....
a song came up on my playlist that was written and performed by an old friend of mine that i lost touch with years ago... and i ended up playing the whole cd, and found the old liner notes... looked him up on facebook.... and there he was!

I'm very happy about this...

then I went to school found out that I got an A on a really hard exam...

I'm even happier now....

stopped at the gas station on my way home from school...


and the guy in front of me took out a gun.
then the guy to the side of me took out a gun.


happiness... gone.

I wasn't scared at all, which was strange... for a moment I felt like I was only observing the world around me...but that I wasn't apart of it.

it was truly surreal...
everything ended up resolving itself pretty peacefully. the second guy was actually defending the place...police came, and i went home...everyone is safe..nothing is stolen...

(((but still, why are there two young guys with guns at the corner gas station...*sigh* ))

i can't really explain how that one moment has changed so many things for me... life is much clearer than it was earlier... things actually seem to make more sense. big things. like my marriage and how it really impacted me... (like I said... big things)

you would think that a moment like that would leave fear and insecurity, but it seems to have the opposite effect... it left clarity...

and getting to come home and talk with an old friend... wow.

this guy represents a piece of me that was killed a long time ago... that's a story that I could fill pages about... (maybe some day I'll tell that story but not today)

the events of this day have me spinning right now.

life is quite an interesting place...

namaste.

Going Green!!

So its official! I have switched to cloth diapers :) I am so excited about doing this... weird, right?! I never thought I could be excited about diapers! I can't believe that this isn't a more popular thing. I got All in Ones and pocket diapers and they are just as easy to use as regular diapers! I also got gDiapers that have inserts that can be flushed or composted. At first I was a little scared off by the cost, but then I went over my receipts for diapers for the last two months... I could have completely set up on cloth for the cost of 3 months of disposables. I only have about a third of what I'm going to need, but I should have everything in about a month if I keep buying a little every week. There are so many different types and styles, colors and patterns... I am loving shopping for them!!!

It makes me feel really good to know that I don't have spend a ton of money on diapers over the next few years, and the environmental aspect of them makes me feel warm inside :)
PLUS - THEY ARE ADORABLE!!!!!!!

So spread the word. Cloth is back, and its awesome!

40 Days of Prosperity

This day, July 17th 2008, I cease believing in visible money as my supply and my support, and I view my current world of effect as it truly is... simply an outpicturing of my former beliefs. I believed in the power of money, therefore I surrendered my God-given power and authority to an objectified belief. I believed in the possibility of lack, thus causing a separation in consciousness from the source of my supply.I believed in the mortal illusion created by the collective consciousness of error thoughts, and in doing so, I have limited the Unlimited. No More! This day I renounce my so-called humanhood and claim my divine inheritance as a being of God. This day I acknowledge God as my supply and my support.