Lost Indigo

today is turning out to be a pretty significant day.

it started out like any other day... playing with Griffin around the house....
a song came up on my playlist that was written and performed by an old friend of mine that i lost touch with years ago... and i ended up playing the whole cd, and found the old liner notes... looked him up on facebook.... and there he was!

I'm very happy about this...

then I went to school found out that I got an A on a really hard exam...

I'm even happier now....

stopped at the gas station on my way home from school...


and the guy in front of me took out a gun.
then the guy to the side of me took out a gun.


happiness... gone.

I wasn't scared at all, which was strange... for a moment I felt like I was only observing the world around me...but that I wasn't apart of it.

it was truly surreal...
everything ended up resolving itself pretty peacefully. the second guy was actually defending the place...police came, and i went home...everyone is safe..nothing is stolen...

(((but still, why are there two young guys with guns at the corner gas station...*sigh* ))

i can't really explain how that one moment has changed so many things for me... life is much clearer than it was earlier... things actually seem to make more sense. big things. like my marriage and how it really impacted me... (like I said... big things)

you would think that a moment like that would leave fear and insecurity, but it seems to have the opposite effect... it left clarity...

and getting to come home and talk with an old friend... wow.

this guy represents a piece of me that was killed a long time ago... that's a story that I could fill pages about... (maybe some day I'll tell that story but not today)

the events of this day have me spinning right now.

life is quite an interesting place...

namaste.